1. Love.
I received your letter.
How lovingly you insist on my writing something,
and here am I, drowned in a deep silence!
I speak, I work,
but I am steeped in emptiness within.
There, there is no movement.
Thus I seem to be living two lives at one time.
What a drama!
But perhaps all of life is a drama
and becoming aware of this opens the door
to a unique freedom.
That which is
inaction in action
stillness in motion
eternity in change
– that is truth
and that is existence.
Real life lies in this eternity –
everything else is just the stream of dreams.
In truth the world is just a dream
and the question is not whether to leave these dreams or not,
one just has to be aware of them.
With this awareness, everything changes.
The center moves.
A shift takes place from body to soul.
And what is there.
It cannot be told.
It has never been told
and it never will be.
There is no other way but to know it for oneself.
Death is known only through dying
and truth is known only through diving deep within oneself.
May God drown you in this truth!
2. Love.
I am in bliss.
I have been meaning to write for a long time
but many engagements prevented me.
My blessings, however, I send every day.
Life is a sadhana;
the more you involve yourself in it
the more divine it becomes.
The light is hidden in the darkness,
truth is hidden,
and from this comes the joy of searching.
I remember the words of a rishi:
Truth is hidden under a golden lid.
The golden lid that hides truth is nothing but our mind.
The mind has smothered us;
we are in it,
we identify with it,
therefore the suffering comes,
the bondage and the chain of rebirths.
Rise above it,
become aware that you are distinct from it –
that alone brings bliss,
that alone is freedom
and the end of birth and death.
We have to be what we truly are:
this is the only sadhana.
It is the frustration of living through desires
that brings this sadhana.
Become alert about desire
and non-attachment begins to appear.
This is not to be made to happen,
it follows naturally from awareness of attachment.
Each one of us has to become aware of his attachments,
and keep being so!
Nothing should be done unconsciously.
If this is remembered
one day a totally new kind of revolution takes place
in our consciousness.
God is leading you towards this revolution –
this I know.
3. My respects to you.
I was extremely pleased to get your letter.
So far I have not written anything
but a meditation center has started here
where some friends are experimenting.
When I have some definite results
there is every possibility of my writing something.
About my experiments on myself, I am sure and certain,
but I want to test their usefulness to others.
I do not want to write anything
in the manner of philosophy,
my outlook is scientific.
I want to say something about yoga
based on certain psychological
and parapsychological experiments.
There are many illusory notions held about it
and these have to be refuted.
Therefore I am experimenting here also.
It is clear to me
that this work is not for promoting any group or cause.
If you ever come here we can talk more about all this.
4. My respects to you.
I am grateful for your affectionate letter.
You are meditating – that is a matter for joy.
Drop all ideas of achieving in meditation,
just do it naturally;
what happens, happens on its own.
One day, effortlessly,
everything starts happening by itself.
Effort does not lead to meditation,
in fact it is a hindrance.
In effort, practice, study,
there is tension.
Any expectation,
even the expectation of peace,
brings restlessness.
The tension has to go.
As soon as this happens
a divine peace sets in.
Stop feeling: I am doing it;
realize instead: I leave myself in the hands of that-which-is.
Surrender,
surrender yourself completely;
as soon as you do this, emptiness comes.
